Process of elimination #lupus

I’ve had problems with breathing at night for quite a while. It started a few years ago and would happen occasionally, and seemed to get worse when I took tramadol for some reason. It’s gotten worse since then. I’ve seen  a pulmonologist, cardiologist, neurologist and a GI. So far everyone just blows it off.

It’s been really bad. Two nights ago, I was up all night long. I went to bed at 7am. I felt like someone was squeezing my chest, and every time I was about to fall asleep, I woke up choking for air.

It sounds like sleep apnea but I really don’t think that’s it. I tested negative for it in 2014. I’m more concerned that it might be my heart or my gall  bladder.

For most of February I was probably getting 4-5 hours of sleep per night. I tried propping my bed up for a while, which was terribly uncomfortable. I stopped taking any medication that has drowsiness as a side effect since that seems to make it a lot worse. I was doing breathing exercises before bed and whenever I woke up in the night, which only provided temporary relief. If I fell asleep at all, it was by accident.

On the nights I did sleep, I was waking up hot and drenched in sweat, which can sometimes be a sign that your heart is doing fucked up shit.

More recently, I’ve weened off the metoprolol (beta blocker for heart palpitations) and also lowered my blood pressure medication (both at my own will) and I’m doing a little better. I had a stress test last October that showed that my heart was performing well while on the metoprolol, but I’m thinking that it’s causing a problem now.

I’m still taking the Norvasc for my blood pressure, but I’m down from 7.5mg to 2.5mg. My blood pressure is elevated and my heart rate is in the 100s, but I’m sleeping better. I have to sleep.

As you’ve read before, I’ve had some problems with sitting in certain positions. I’ve given up on sitting on the couch because it gives me chest pains and shortness of breath.

I am going to make an appointment with a new cardiologist because my current cardiologist likes to blow me off and tell me to exercise. I’ll exercise as soon as I can breathe.

I am hopeful to find a cardiologist who knows how to look for even the most minor inflammation. My current cardiologist had admitted that sometimes inflammation can be so mild that it’s easily missed.

Also, I’m having a terrible time with gastritis and acid reflux. I stopped taking the Duexis (ibuprofen) and I also think that it’s made a difference in my breathing at night. I occasionally just take over-the-counter ibuprofen. I haven’t had it in a few days though. I’m probably more achy than usual but it hasn’t been unbearable. But I haven’t really left the house in a few days. Also, my period is next week so I know I’m fucked for pain and headaches.

My breathing gets worse when I have my period too. I was thinking about taking the progesterone shots to stop it.

I’m going back to my GI and asking him to check my gall bladder. I’m on 240mg of Dexilant per day, which is a dose the pharmacy didn’t even want to give me, and I still feel like I am drowning in stomach acid.

He has been reluctant to provide me with any real treatments so far. The only reason I have the Dexilant is because my rheumatologist gave it to me. I am hoping that at my next visit with my GI, he will be more proactive. If not, I’ll have to find someone else.

The gastritis is keeping me up at night. I have to get up at 4-5am and eat, and take medication for it so I can (hopefully) go back to sleep. Otherwise I feel like lava is eating the inside of my stomach.

So, maybe it’s my heart, or my stomach, or both. We’ll see.

I am also going to see another neurologist for the breathing issues and a bunch of other shit. I’m having a lot of muscle weakness in my hands and I’m dealing with a lot of brain fog.

For the past few weeks I’ve had some kind of tendonitis in my hip. My knee was bothering me too, but that seems to be better. I can’t really think of anything I did. I tend to bear my weight on my left leg when I’m standing for a while, but I don’t see how that could cause my hip to hurt for 2 weeks. Then again, I suppose it could, since Lupus is a dick.

I’m having a bad time with my body temperature. Sometimes I’m too hot, and sometimes I feel like someone drained all the heat out of me. I’ve been getting cold hands and feet like usual, but I’ve also been getting ice cold spots on other parts of my body, like my knees and hips. I don’t really know what that’s about. It makes me worry about my circulation. I don’t know if you can get Raynaud’s in other parts of your body. Or perhaps it’s the “vasculopathy”. More mysterious bullshit to deal with.

I also have a shivering problem, and sometimes I’m cold, and sometimes I’m not. It’s really hard on my muscles because it makes me really tense. It’s uncomfortable. I don’t know what that is, either.

I have an appointment with my rheumatologist this week. I’m basically just going to reiterate this blog.

 

 

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February #lupus #ra #humira #spoonie

February was a long month. It seemed like my family and I were sick for weeks. My brother came down with the flu on Superbowl Sunday. Everyone’s been sick since then. We had a sudden heat wave and I think it just made everybody sicker. I had a sore throat for weeks, and then finally last week I got a cold. Once I actually got sick, it wasn’t that bad. But it took so long just to come down with it. I felt awful for a long time. I’m doing better now but my sinuses are still stuffy.

I had to take my Humira a few days late a couple times this month just to make sure I was well enough to take it. It ended up working out, but it’s kind of stressful when you’re not sure if you’re sick or not. I did my shot yesterday. I’m tired today but not sure if it’s from the shot or just from everything.

I’m not sleeping well. I’m pretty exhausted. Sometimes in the middle of the day I’m so tired I just want to cry. I would take a nap, but I haven’t been able to sleep at any time of day. I’ve talked before about my breathing problems at night. This month it’s been really bad. I feel like there is something wrong with my diaphragm. When I lie down I feel some resistance in that area, like it collapses or closes up or something. Right when I’m about to fall asleep I jerk awake gasping, and I can hear it. It’s not wheezing. It seems different. Sometimes I have a night where it doesn’t really bother me. Those seem to be the days where I didn’t take any medications that cause drowsiness or relax muscles. So now I’m afraid to take anything like that anymore, because I want so badly to just sleep. Last night was a little better than usual but I was still up pretty early because of my usual gastritis pain that hits me around 5am. If I fall asleep around midnight and wake up at 5, that’s actually a good night for me. Sometimes I go to bed and I’m not really able to fall asleep til 2-3 because of the breathing problems, and the quality of sleep I do get is pretty shitty, and I wake up all jumpy and jittery.

My joints hurt a lot this week. Particularly my lower spine, hips, knees, and the bones in my feet. I’m not really sure why. Sometimes when I get menstrual cramps, it’s like the pain goes all the way down to my feet.

I’ve had a lot of nose bleeds. I had a week this month where I was having 2 a day. I wasn’t gushing all over the floor but I still needed to keep tissues around. I chalked it up to to the Flonase that I had been using for some nasal swelling. I prefer nasacort since it doesn’t smell like flowers and it doesn’t give me nosebleeds.

The last 2 doctor appointments I’ve been to were complete shit. They didn’t listen to me at all. Sometimes a doctor’s only goal is to bill your insurance. I went to the gynecologist for a “Well Woman” visit which is free for everyone because of Obamacare. I had a few things concerning chronic pain in that area that I tried to talk to her about, things I thought she might be concerned about too, but she seemed more interested in hurrying me along, since it was my free visit. The pain I have is abnormal and uncomfortable daily and I was hoping to get some help or at least an explanation.She basically just told me not to wear jeans. And I’m just thinking “Um, it’s not normal for jeans to make your ladyparts hurt to begin with.” I thought she might check my hormone levels since an imbalance could cause pain sometimes. Nope. I also talked about progesterone to stop my periods since they make my lupus worse every month, and she really wasn’t interested in providing me with extra information. I asked her if she had some of those medication brochures and she told me to google it.

The more I thought about that appointment, the more pissed it made me. I felt a bit violated and unheard at the same time.

Doctors hate Obamacare and are prejudiced against any service they have to provide under it. She just wanted to do the minimum and get me out of her office.

I would happily talk about the other appointment I went to openly but [insert dysfunctional relative here] reads my blog and I’d sooner share things with strangers at the bus stop. I don’t usually talk about the harassment out of fear of retaliation.

It was just another situation where I was disappointed by a doctor with whom I shared things in confidence, and now I have to see another doctor and start all over again.

Today I was supposed to go see a neurologist. I made the appointment on speakerphone with my mom 2 months ago for today, March 1st. I put it right into the calendar on my iPod. I can only make appointments on Tuesday or Thursday, and I go mostly on Tuesdays. The staff must have forgotten that Monday was leap day, because for some reason I was scheduled on Monday. I know for sure it was supposed to be March 1st. I remember specifically asking for it since it was a Tuesday. So now they won’t see me at all since I was a “no show”, even though it was their mistake. They’d never admit to it in a billion years and in the mean time gave me attitude like I was too lazy to show up yesterday. They told me they tried to call me once to confirm the appointment on Friday but that there was “something wrong with my phone”. My mom called to confirm the appointment this morning since I never got a call, and it’s a good thing she did, or else we would have driven 3 hours round trip for nothing.

While I don’t really want to be at a doctor’s office where the staff doesn’t know how to read a calendar, I was disappointed that I didn’t get to see a doctor today. I really want to talk to someone and hopefully figure out my breathing problems. I’m scheduled to see a new neuro but their first available appointment is at the end of April. I am hoping that if they get a cancellation, they can get me in sooner.

At the same time I am a bit disenchanted with going to doctors in general. I feel like I’m not being heard or helped. I’m not expecting a magic wand but maybe a bit more understanding would be nice. Whenever I have a new troubling symptom I feel like it takes years to figure out what it is, because I have to go around and see all the specialists all over again, only to have most of them shrug and go “it’s probably the lupus”. Well, no shit sherlock, but I’m miserable, so fix it.

For example, I’ve had heart palpitations and high blood pressure for years. I still don’t really know why. It’s probably vascular. But for me to finally know that it’s “probably vascular” took me years of “it sounds like anxiety” and various tests coming up normal. I had to beg my cardiologist to give me medication for it. My resting BP was 140/100 and it was giving me terrible headaches, shortness of breath and dizziness. They were perfectly OK with letting me go on like that because it’s “not that high” and “it would take ten years to do damage”. It’s still a problem but I’m a bit more comfortable now. I have a handful of symptoms like this that make daily living really hard and they all just kind of shrug at me, and my nighttime breathing problems is one of them.

Also my bladder problems… I don’t remember if I already wrote about this or not, but I was able to figure out that some of my bladder irritation is probably an allergic reaction to salmon. I was eating it a lot since my diet is pretty limited, but I realized when I hadn’t eaten it in a while, I wasn’t having the burning or frequency nearly as much anymore. I still pee a lot but I’m in a lot less pain now. But I’ve been dealing with the bladder irritation since I did the Rituxan treatment in 2014 (which can happen with some drugs) and it’s been terribly uncomfortable.

Sometimes I get treated like I’m doing something to cause my own symptoms.

Or the “you’re too young to be dealing with that”.

Oh, ok then, I guess I’m not.

I’m still not really able to sit on the couch without getting the vertigo and chest discomfort. I’m really not sure what that’s all about. I’m sitting in dining and office chairs most of the time now. Some days are better than others. It’s been hard on my body but the pain has been easier to deal with than the vertigo. By nighttime I’m pretty achy. It’s hard to have the endurance to sit at a table when you’re sleep deprived, too. I feel like I’m pushing myself every day now. Days feel really long sometimes.

Veering off into a completely different direction, I am pretty disappointed with the changes in social media lately. As sad as it sounds, they are the bulk of my social life, and the new algorithms that control who and how I interact with people have made things like facebook basically useless. The facebook algorithm is designed so that the less you interact with someone, the less you see of their posts. But then what ends up happening is you never see a person’s posts so you never interact with them. It’s a shitty catch-22 algorithm. So I know my friends aren’t ignoring me, they just aren’t seeing my shit, and vice-versa. Twitter is starting to do the same thing, and they both throw in a lot of advertising, which is annoying. I also am annoyed from seeing 2-day-old posts at the top of my news feed, and seeing a post again just because someone commented on it. I’m starting to fail to see the point in using facebook. I know there are other social media apps and stuff but I don’t have a smartphone and I am limited to what my computer or my iPod 4 can do. I like sharing my art and my stupid thoughts and my blogs with people. It makes me feel normal.

Speaking of art… I had a week where I did quite a few digital drawings, still life stuff. I got sick and I got off track a little bit but I’ll get back to it. I was learning about my camera the other day. I haven’t played around with the settings much and I was having fun with that. Today I downloaded Blender to see if I still have any 3D modeling skills intact. It all still makes sense, I just have to practice it a little bit. I totally bombed this tutorial on Youtube, but probably because I was trying to do it with a headache. There are quite a few computer programs I want to try. I was looking at Maya, and I am already familiar with 3D Studio Max. I also want to try Sketchbook Pro and probably Photoshop for drawing. I also would love to get my hands on some music software like FL Studio. I can use my piano keyboard as a midi controller and I know I’d have a ball with that.

Last night the fog rolled in really thick and it smelled like the beach. It was pretty much my favorite.

Vertigo and stuff #lupus

I’ve been getting vertigo and shortness of breath from sitting on my couch.

I agree, it sounds ridiculous.

It must be a positional/blood flow thing. Like when you get a random boner, only vertigo.

Luckily I’ve never had a random boner.

I’ve been sitting in a chair at the table for most of the day to avoid it. But I reach a point where I can’t sit there, either. My neck and my back couldn’t take it anymore so I went to lie down on my side on the couch for a bit, and sure enough, the room is now spinning. I also feel like someone is sitting on my chest. I’m having more shortness of breath when I am trying to fall asleep too.

I wish my ass was less bony.

This has been going on for a week or more. It’s just this month’s weird problem. I get a new one every month. It’s like a ‘Weird Problem of the Month’ club. This subscription sucks.

I saw a specialist for pain and brain fog a few weeks ago. I’ll be nice and just say he wasn’t a good match. I have appointments with a couple more, my mom and I figured we might as well shop around a bit for this type of specialist considering it’s a tricky subject and the specialist needs to know what they’re doing.

I have an appointment with a gyno soon, because unfortunately the chronic pain and skin inflammation that goes with autoimmune disease can affect anywhere. Also, having Addison’s Disease, my hormone levels could be unbalanced. My periods every month make my lupus worse. I hate knowing that week is coming. I hate having that setback all the time. I hate the extra migraines and the ‘Weird Problem of the Month’. I hate the extra stomach pain, and the extra pain in general. I hate the extra fatigue, and the lack of sleep, and the cramps. I wish there was a different word for cramps, because the word ‘cramp’ doesn’t do the ‘barbed-wire-wrapped-around-my-uterus’ feeling justice.

Oops. TMI.

Right now I’m shivering for no reason. I’m not cold, because it’s hot in my house right now. Just another weird symptom I’ve been having lately. It makes my muscles hurt. We broke a record in heat today. “Winter” LOL.

I did some art today. I’ve had a bit more energy in the morning for the past couple days. When I am able to sleep until 7 it seems like I do better with energy. But when I sleep until 4, and then I’m up for 3 hours and then have to go back to bed, I usually feel shitty.

Thursday is Humira day.

Well, I managed to mention butts, lady parts, and boners in today’s blog. I should probably get off the computer now.

 

 

 

Tomorrow and energy and stuff #lupus

My rheumatologist told me last week that we are doing everything we can safely do to control inflammation and the pain caused by it. The next step is to try to control the pain not caused by inflammation, and also my brain fog issues. I’m seeing a new specialist for those things tomorrow. I’m not a fan of going to see a new doctor. It always makes me nervous.

I’m still struggling with energy. It doesn’t help that I can’t seem to get a decent night’s sleep. I woke up every hour last night, mostly because I pee too much. I feel like a sloth today. I’m having some shortness of breath that isn’t helping either. I’m having some headaches that come with vertigo and feeling lightheaded. They make my neck hurt too. I’ve had them before. They’re not too bad this time but they make it really hard to concentrate. They make the brain fog a lot worse. They get worse when I look down for too long. Sometimes they make my muscles feel weak, and they make my teeth hurt. They’re weird headaches and they feel awful. I’m pretty sure they are vestibular migraines. When I can rid myself of the headache/neck ache, all the other weird symptoms go away too.

I’m taking more vitamins. I went up on my iron and started taking D3 softgels instead of tablets. They seem more effective for some reason. I get more achy at night when I don’t have enough D3.

I’m backing off on the ibuprofen. Mostly just to see what happens.

My BP seemed a bit on the low side today. I’m gonna try going back to my usual dose of Florinef. Maybe it will help my energy. It might give me more headaches. I don’t know. It’s a medical Rubix Cube.

I had a minor stomach flu on Monday. It wasn’t really that bad but I still don’t feel 100% yet. Today I would normally do my Humira shot but I’m gonna wait an extra day to make sure I’m over it. I’m kinda too tired to deal with stabbing myself today anyway. It’s an easy process but the injector pen is painful.

I’ve been using restasis eye drops for a few years. My eyes used to feel so sticky and dry. I’m taking a break from them now. I feel like every time I use them they make my eye feel irritated all day, which seems counter-productive. I’m using Pazeo allergy eye drops now and they seem to be taking care of the irritation and my eyes don’t seem to feel dry even though I stopped the restasis. I’m still not wearing contact lenses that much but I am able to actually wear them when I want to. Mostly I’m just too lazy to put them in.

 

Humira update #lupus

 

I’ve had about 6 or 7 humira shots. I am noticing some changes, both good and bad. I’m due for my next one tomorrow.

To summarize, so far it has helped some of my lower GI pain and symptoms. The relief there was actually immediate. I lost some bloat and I am more regular now. At one point my stomach was hurting so often I didn’t really want to leave the house. I still get some  flares (like today) and have days where things aren’t moving along but it’s not every day anymore.

On the flipside, I am more tired. I’m having a hard time finding the energy to do daily things. I’m getting short of breath pretty easily. Any bit of exercise I am able to do makes me pretty tired and sore. My body temperature is up and down, but never comfortable. I’m pretty sensitive to heat, even when I have the chills. My fingers and toes are going numb and turning blue and white. My face turns red, and I’m waking up in the night feeling too hot and feeling like my feet are on fire. My overall pain level is the same. I’m a bit more headachey. The morning stiffness lasts all day and clothes feel painful sometimes. I’m getting bad cramps in my hands and feet, and sometimes in my back. My throat is sore, my nose has sores in it, my mouth hurts, and my lymph nodes in my neck and underarms are tender. My periods are off schedule, which is really strange for me. My focus is terrible, and my memory sucks. My gastritis is painful and my acid reflux is obnoxious. Not much has changed, some symptoms are actually worse, or have returned.

I’m not expecting the Humira to help everything. I was hoping for less joint and muscle pain and a little more energy. I think that’s a realistic expectation. I really wasn’t expecting to be more tired. Sometimes I’m “too tired to move” tired, and sleeping doesn’t make it better. I was hoping I’d adjust to the humira and the fatigue from it would wear off. I’m still not sure if it’s the treatment for me. It’s helped so much with my lower GI pain, and that would be hard relief to give up if I were to switch treatments. I just wonder if there is something that would help a little of everything.

I could only sleep on my left side last night. I woke up pretty achy this morning. I had a nice reprieve from my nighttime breathing problems, but now it’s back and this time it’s triggered by rolling over at night. It must be related to my vasculopathy, and rolling over changes my blood flow or something. I’m still doing the breathing exercises. They haven’t helped much for the past few nights. Sometimes I am too tired to do them. Sometimes they make my hernia hurt. They’re not very fun.

Vasculopathy wasn’t even a google-able word a year ago. Now they’re doing research on it and there’s information online about it, which is pretty great.

Magnesium has been giving me a headache so I’m taking a little break from that. I bumped my vitamin D3 back up to 1600 IU. I’m still taking slow release iron. I started taking 7.25mg DHEA. I have low testosterone and DHEA is supposed to help. So far I don’t really notice anything besides oily skin. My endocrinologst wanted me to start at 10mg but that dose was giving me a headache. I can probably work my way up to it.

I’m trying to do some walking when I feel up to it. Aside from the El Nino rain, the weather has been more forgiving lately. Sometimes the cold air makes me stiff, but it’s still easier to manage than the heat. I saw an RA article once that had some suggestions and one of them said “exercise when practical”. Putting it that way makes so much sense. Depending on the weather and how you feel, sometimes it’s just not practical to exercise because it could just end up hurting you. People with autoimmune and autoinflammatory diseases can’t just push themselves through stuff like healthy people.

I’m drawing more lately. My hands are stiff and it’s not always easy to make clean or straight lines but I’m managing to work around it. I can also draw digitally now since I have a Wacom tablet. It has taken the stress out of set up and clean up. It has also taken some of the discomfort out of sitting and drawing as well. I can just sit, draw, and delete. It’s a good warm up too and I’m hoping it will strengthen my hands. I lost my confidence in it for a while but I’m starting to feel better about it now. I was getting to caught up in the idea of the end result and not really enjoying the process. I also think I had some amount of anxiety over doing it because I know it causes pain. I can work around that a little better now.

My sleep schedule is still weird. I’m up til midnight or 1 and I sleep till 11am. I don’t think it’s unusual for a person with adrenal insufficiency to have a schedule like that. I know that when I get up early I feel awful all day. Luckily I have the freedom to sleep when I need to.

Humira and stuff #lupus

I took a break from writing, and wordpress has a whole new interface. I really wish websites would stop changing things around. It’s really annoying to have to re-learn how to use something all the time.

I’ve been on the Humira for a little over a month. I was a week late for my last injection because of insurance/pharmacy and because I didn’t ask my doctor for another sample when I should have. I felt some of my stomach pain come back. After I did another shot it seemed to get better again.  I’ve felt more tired while on Humira, like “too tired to shower” tired. I still manage to shower, but it’s been exhausting. When I get up in the morning I feel like I didn’t sleep, and I’m dragging ass all day. I’m hoping it’s just an adjustment period.

My focus has been horrible. I think that’s why I didn’t write for a while. I feel like I don’t have two thoughts to rub together. I could stare at the wall and be fine with it.

My Raynaud’s is in a flare. I don’t really know what made it go away, to be honest. I think between it being 80 degrees outside and having a fever all the time, my hands and feet just weren’t getting spasms. It’s been a bit cold here lately. Humira has made me have less fevers, and sometimes the chills, so my fingers and toes are back to being painfully numb and blue.

My period was late this month. I noticed more recently that it seems to happen every 30 days now instead of every 28, but I probably didn’t get it until the 33rd day. I figured I was going to skip one, but then it showed up. I’ve been headachey but no where near what it was even a year ago. Tylenol actually helps, which is a first for me.

My body temperature has been a roller coaster. I’m either too hot or freezing, I can’t seem to get comfortable. I get the shivers randomly, which is a lot of fun for my muscles. I am enjoying the break from being to hot all the time, but being cold makes my body hurt too. The return of the Raynaud’s has made my hands and feet ache a lot. My joints are really stiff. I’ve been getting joint pain in my jaw and my neck is giving me some vertigo again.

Everything checks out at the cardiologist and pulmonologist. My rheumatologist said that I am most likely dealing with vasculopathy, which is a new area of study in the medical world. It’s basically like having raynaud’s in your whole body. Your blood vessels spasm and you get short of breath or your heart pounds. When it happens in your brain it gives you the brain fog. He wanted me to look into a clinic that teaches breathing exercises that can temporarily un-spasm your blood vessels. Such places would be minfulness or biofeedback, and can be covered by insurance. I’m trying to find a place that isn’t shady, since it’s alternative medicine. It’s hard to find anything in my county that’s not a sham. If I can’t find something I’ll probably look into books or dvds on breathing exercises, or something. I don’t know.

The vasculopathy is difficult because every time I do something that changes my blood pressure, like eating, or standing up, or moving around, my chest gets really tight. It’s really uncomfortable. I feel like I can’t get any air. It’s probably also the cause of my nighttime breathing problems, which are made worse by certain medications.

My rheumatologist did show me one breathing exercise. You have to do it for 3 minutes, which is really tiring. I’m gonna have to work my way up to 3 minutes. To say it’s aerobic would be redundant, but it just is. It’s a lot of work to breathe weird for 3 minutes. I’m gonna keep trying. It gives me a headache but since my headaches aren’t so bad these days, I’d rather deal with that then feel like I can’t breathe.

The humira shots hurt a lot. I’m using the injector pen. I tried icing my leg first, that seemed to help. I’m glad they’re twice a month and not every week. I could switch to syringes but I like the simplicity of the auto injector I guess.

I’ve been pretty tired but I’ve been staying up late. It’s like I’m too tired to go to bed. Lame.

My cat yells at me every night because bed time is her favorite time.

 

 

 

eyes and lungs #lupus #stillsdisease

I had 2 doctor appointments yesterday. It was a long day. I’m pretty tired today. I first went to the opthamologist for a follow up about the allergy eye drops and the contact lens samples she gave me. The toric lenses are pretty uncomfortable. I haven’t had a pair of torics that weren’t uncomfortable. To me, they’re like sticking window clings to your eyeballs. The edges are too hard and can feel the lenses all day. I tell eye doctors this but they always seem to insist on trying torics anyway, probably because they are more expensive. I gave them a try anyway and told her they were uncomfortable, and now I’m just going to go back to my usual lenses. My astigmatism isn’t bad enough for them to be necessary anyway.

My appointment with her was very irritating. I probably won’t be going back.

I had some time to kill between appointments. It was hard to stay awake for some reason, which is odd for me. I get tired but I never really get sleepy. I was wondering if the Humira had something to do with it. Also, the eye doctor was poking around in my eyes and putting all sorts of drops in without asking me first, and it made me have anxiety. I could have also been sleepy from that, since my adrenals make me sensitive to stress.

After that I went to the pulmonologist. He seems like a nice doctor. I did a few breathing tests that measure for asthma and lung capacity, and he also listened to my breathing. Those tests didn’t show anything, but since I have shortness of breath and a lot of tightness in my lungs, he is going to do a few more specific tests. He talked about lung inflammation from lupus, and that it doesn’t always show up on certain tests. He seemed certain that we could find out what the problem is without running a million tests. I also already had a chest x-ray and they took some blood.

Tomorrow I will be doing the breathing tests for the pulmonologist, and I will also be doing a stress echo for my cardiologist, so it will be a long day again.